3 Weeks

My trip to Disney is 3 weeks away and I am utterly unprepared. I still haven't purchased my park pass ( Paying $500 makes my head hurt to much....not to mention my stomach....and wallet), I have no nice summer clothes to bring or the money to buy some, work has been the most stressful it has ever been and leaving for a week and a half is certainly not going to make things better (though it will be nice to get away from it), my sisters due date for her baby is very close to when I am leaving so I might not be here when she is born, and Robert can't really afford this trip because he doesn't get paid vacation so that makes me anxious for him. I am neither mentally nor financially prepared for this trip and it is so unlike me!

I usually have seperate savings for everything I need months in advance! I buy all my travel stuff and new clothes with it and I have my spending money too. I dont believe in being unprepared when it comes to money and I always have a back up plan. This time however, I have NOTHING! No plans at all, I am flying my the seat of my pants here people! I have no solutions to any problems and it is starting to piss me off royally.

The events of the past year of course have something to do with that. I had to buy a new car that decimated my savings ( not my apartment fund though, I touch that for no one!)....not to mention I had to pay another grand for my sisters baby shower, so this trip is not at a very convienient time since I have not really had a chance to recover at all. I am just so stressed about everything, I hate my job and want to leave but there is nothing out there right now.

Oh well....I am going to have to suck it up and deal. I know there are alot of people who are unhappy in there current situations and I should not be complaining. Sometimes it hard not to! The only good thing about going on this trip is that fact that it is Disney and even with all the problems I am having with going there.....at least I get to go.