Its Over!

Finally!!!!!!!!! The Christmas season is behind us. I can't tell you how much I have been looking forward to being done with giving and BUYING gifts, just seems to get more and more expensive as the years go buy. I got some very nice stuff though, including a ball winder and swift that I asked for! I will have pictures up as soon as I charge my camera. They are beautious if I do say so myself.

So now I have to figure out what I am going to be doing with myself if I don't have to worry about everyone else.....I really want to knit something for myself.....and watch supernatural....with a cup of green tea....yummmmmm

And then of course there are my new years resolutions.....which are...you guessed it! Losing weight and spending less money! Will I be able to do it? Only time will tell I suppose. The money one is the one I really want to succeed with, I can't believe how much money I have spent on going out to eat alone! I mean thousands of dollars this year and that just isn't right, I need to be smarter about where my money goes especially if I want to live on my own...with one Robert Gerard of course =)

Hermitization

In the words of one of my favorite blog writers (Crazy Aunt Purl) I would like to hermitize myself until after the holidays are over and done with. I have no desire to be merry or to tell other people to be merry. I have no desire to see people, talk to people, or even stand near people. I have absolutely no Christmas spirit this year, just bitterness because I have not finished my shopping because there is not enough time to breath deeply let alone buy gifts.

It will certainly be a small Christmas this year. My nana died a few weeks ago and my mom and I just don't want to deal with all the hooblah this year. We have a small (table size) Christmas tree as our only decoration and only a handful of presents under it. If I have to go to one more store I will be forced to scream and no one will want to be around me anyways.

Hermitization seems to be the only option this year. I want to find a nice cozy little shack where I can knit whatever I want without having to worry about holiday deadlines....maybe something for myself? That would be something new! =).....I would have a little fireplace and a cup of green tea (I have actually started to like the stuff!) and Mickey's Christmas Carol to watch while I knit something soft and squishy for myself. If it was a perfect world Robert Gerard would be there for a cuddle after. (I know hermitization means to be by yourself, but come on! He is adorable and snuggly!) Yes, that is what I want for Christmas Santa! Let me know when you find me such a place!

I Am Still Alive!!

Yes I am still alive and man it has been forever since I posted something! Since before Halloween! Shame on me....but I have tons of stuff to share =)

First of all Rob was in a body building competition because he is a nutter. Preparing for it made him grumpy, irritable, hungry, skinny and incredibly HOT! I mean it is incredible what a diet, some iron weights and some self tanner can do to a person, he looked completely different. I helped him get ready for it the night before and it took 4 coats of tanner to get him as dark as he got (my pastey little baby that he is!). We were there for about 14 hours and he got 12th out of 18, which isn't to shabby considering he had never done one and gained 10 pounds the month before when we pigged out in Vegas hehe. Here is a little eye candy for your enjoyment (yes he is in spandex underwear). I know they are pixlated....I was kinda far in the audience when I took them.....

I was so proud of him! And happy that he got to eat more the egg whites because man was that boy grouchy when he couldnt eat more then a rabbit does. Oh well, he is doing another one in May and I am sure he will be just as grouchy haha.

Then of course we have Halloween. We when to his friend house who lives in Rebecca Churches old place (one of the Salem witches, cool huh?) He went as the Ultimate Warrior (snicker) and I went as Selene from Underworld......

His costumes are always the best =). Well I think that is it for now since I am at work, I will post more tomorrow hopefully if this mountain on my desk doesn't get any bigger ::sigh:: =(

Pumpkins and Sunsets

Well folks it is official....I HAVE CARVED MY FIRST PUMPKIN WITH ROBERT GERARD!!!...Well I did it last weekend but I couldn't find my camera wire to post about it...heh. BUT IT HAS BEEN FOUND. Ladies and gentlemen (not sure if men read this though) may I present to you....LENNY THE PUMPKIN!!!!

Dont you just love him? That is me, Lenny and a super skinny body building competition prepping Robert Gerard.....I should have taken a picture of Lenny alone....I hate pictures of me....any whooooooo.......that is Lenny and what a project! It was gooey and slimy and chunky....but it was fun!!!!! Rob is going to bake the pumpkin seeds for snacks....such a health food nut!

Our friends carved so really cute ones too, I thought it was such a great idea how they did it.

Unfortunately there is a tragic end to this pumpkin fairy tale. Lenny has gotten....soft. I simply cannot have soft men in my life, they must strong and hard and full of life! Not soft and limp and slowly imploding on themselves. So tonight our affair will be no more =( and I must find a new pumpkin to make my dreams come true.......it was nice knowing you Lenny, you will be missed.

On a happier note, I was witness to a beautiful pink sky on the way home from work the other day and I thought I would share a picture with you. I-95 never looked so good =)

P.S I caved and bought the needle and yarn =O

Crazy Blog Stalker Person.....

I have been feeling more and more like a stalker person lately. It got to a point where I actually felt like I was friends with the people who write the knitting blogs that I love so much! I mean some of them just sound so nice and I can relate to so many of them that I have caught myself thinking that I actually knew them!! Isn't that more then a little creepy? I mean I certainly wish I knew them, I only have one knitting buddy and I don't really see her that often to knit so I do wish I had the kind of companionship that alot of bloggers have. Many go to stitch and bitch meetings and have knitting parties and that is just something I want to do but am too shy to do it. I have major social anxiety and unless someone I know is around I wouldn't go to anything like that. So maybe that is all it is. I want people to share my craft with and go/have knitting parties and be social....but instead I use the internet to read about it and wish I was friends with the people I read about.....I am at a whole new form of pathetic. ICKKK..........

To Splurge or Not to Splurge.....

I know that I am suppose to be good. I know that I am suppose to be saving money for a place and Christmas and all that, but it has come to my attention that with the present economy the odds of me getting a place anytime soon aren't good. I simply have to many loans to pay each month to even think about having enough money for rent and heat and all the crap that comes with getting an apartment. So it makes me wonder.....can I buy those knit picks knitting needles that I have been eyeing the last couple months? Can I afford to splurge away $30 of my hard earned money on well crafted and unique knitting needles along with a large amount of their nice inexpensive yarn? Is there a way for me to justify the purchase? Mind you, I do have these particular needles in a different brand....but they suck! The yarn keeps getting caught where the needle meets the cable and it is driving me crazy! And I need two pairs (socks on two circulars)

I hate having to be careful with my money. I work hard for it and want to enjoy it, but I know I should be thinking about whether or not I actually need to spend it on something. Don't get me wrong! I have been saving like crazy and have a nice little nest egg put away ( not exactly huge, but a decent size for me) but I realize that even if I save alot of money.....I can't live off my savings! There would be no point, eventually it would run out and what happens after that? I move back in with my mom? No, I need to be able to cover my bills on a monthly basis without having to dip into my savings. Then of course comes the depression of my situation.....who knows when that will be. Robert Gerard and I have been wanting to get a place for a long time, but the earliest I can see it happening is maybe in a year or two when we are making more money. ::Sigh:: I hate it, but it is true.
So what do you think? Should I just enjoy my $30 and buy the knitting needles and yarn I want? Or should I suck it up and hope I get them for X-mas or something?

Disney Woes...

Ok, so my friends Brendan and Amy are going to Disney World in December for the Christmas celebration which is fantastic! I have only been to Disney in during the month of August when it is humid and ickky (but no less fun ^_~). Anyways, so they invited me a Rob for the umpteenth time to join, since they have the vacation club time share there we would only have to pay for our passes and plane tickets which is such a good deal! I looked up some flights and prices and I figured it would cost us about 550 each which like I said, isnt bad!

So why am I having Disney woes you ask? Well my wonderful Robert Gerard doesn't want to go!! ::Sniffle:: I mean I can completely understand where he is coming from......we just spent a shit load of money in Vegas, Christmas is coming up and we will be hard pressed toward the end, and we should be saving for our apartment. All valid reasons why we shouldn't go so I made him an offer. What if I just bought his park pass for X-mas and his plane ticket for his birthday. That would give me gifts to give him and he wouldn't have to pay for anything! The only thing would be food which I would be happy to help pay for with the many hours of overtime money I am getting. All this to no avail.....he doesn't want to go during Christmas. I respect his decision but I sure would have loved to see Mickey in that Santa suit ::double sniffle::